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[Sunday
March 18th, 2007
3:54pm
]
1 year today


So a year today i was the happiest girl alive, i had someone i liked very much and they actually liked me back, just the menchion of there name made me smile and be happy, Who wanted to actually spend time with me and no one elese who thought i was hot and cute and i thought the same thing back. This really was the best bit of my life, it just seemed like everything was amazing and that there was nothing stopping me.

Know i can't even listen to the songs i usto love so much cause they make me think about that time and how i would trade everything just feel like that again. It really does break my heart and also knowing that this person probably just thinks it is another day shes got everything and probably allways will. I miss feeling nice and pritty and not giving a shit cause someone actually loved me and if anyone said i was fat or ugly i just laughed because i knew i had someone who was so much more better than them. I miss it and i miss her so much. The next couple of weeks are gonna be the worsed ever im gonna be so sad and feel so lonely.

The only way i wont feel like shit is if i have someone, god that sounds so silly and childish but... i like someone quite alot right know but i highley doubt they like me back i mean who would only one person did and even she went off me cause of my stupid paranoia. This person just reminds me of how i usto feel but he also makes me feel completely differnt at the same time and i really like it, it puts a big smile on my face for the rest of the day but whats to say he likes i bet he was just trying to be friendly and thats it. I mean if he went out with me i bet everyone would laugh caus he is with me the fat english one. I am so confused and i dont know what to do like i left him a email and i he will read it and be sick or like wanna jump off a bridge. MAN this sucks and it really doesnt help that i am listening to sad music.

my mind right know is fecked up mega style
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[Tuesday
December 5th, 2006
5:18pm
]
[ mood | content ]

Hey

Well today i am off cause i feel kinda sic and i wanted to be better for tomorrow cause im going to Stirling Castle even though i have been for like 8923783894393 times but aww well and i wanted to be better for Going out with the Free Ears Group.
Anyway so last night i felt really sick i got home and i was sick and i woke up this morning and i was seriuosly green and i was like im not going to school so i never went lol.
And OMG it is so feckin dark allready =O.

So yeah a couple of things on my head know i like someone and they like me and i dunno what to do cause i thought i would never say this but i kinda like being single i know i thought i would never say it but i just did. And i would maybe like to see this person but i thought i was seeing this person but i got it wrong lol. I am such a freekin weirdo LOL.

Anway yeah im nice and cosy in my covers and im looking forward to tomorow =].

Bye

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[Sunday
November 26th, 2006
5:57pm
]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Well
Today was differnt. I thought i would feel good but i kinda didint it was weird.
I made a new friend she is rather lovely sarah Mary.i am gonna meet up with her soon hopefully=].
Jess was the center of attetion as usuall with the trofe(i cant spell). Me and Sarah mary were the big quite goaffs there it was quite funny and we were laughing at all the over maked up people it was a LOL. it was kinda nice meeting someone new who didnt really know everything about me. I have know learnt i really dont fit in any where at all and i am kinda allright with that.

aww well thats my misery today.
XxX

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[Saturday
November 25th, 2006
7:08pm
]
[ mood | chipper ]

Hey
well PINK was the most amazing thing ever and i think anna and ryan really enjoyed it aswell.
I have done thousands of house work today and my arms and legs are about to fall off. i Feel really bad cause i said i would go for a walk with anna and ryan but i ouldnt cause i had to get everything ready for tomorrow and do a whole load of stuff round the house(sorry ryan and anna).
I am shitting myself for tomorrow i havent been this nervous in ages i am at a dancing comp thing and i am kinda worried i havnt done one in feckin ages and i hope i do well cause then i get to do more complicated dances that look really impresive=]. I have actually fallen in love with Through the Monsoon it is so feckin beautiful and i can relate the lyrics.
Yeah thats all from me the know.
Love you all.

Im starring at a broken door
Theres nothing left here anyomre
my room is cold its making me insane
I ve been waiting here so long
Another moment seems to have come
i see the dark clouds coming up again

Running through the Monsoon Beyond the world
To the end of time where the rain will turn
Fighting the storm into the blue
And when i loose myself i think of you
Toghther we'll be running somewhere new
through the monsson
just me and you

i half moon fading from my side
isee your vision in its light
But know its gone and left me so alone
I know i have to find you know
Can hear your name i dont know how
why cant we make this darkness feel like home


Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world to the end of time
where the rain will turn
Fighting the strom into the blue
and when i loose myself i think of you
Toghter we'll be riding somewhere new
and nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon

Im fighting on a star war coming in my way
let it take me straight to you
I'll be running night and day
I'll be there with you soon
just me and you
were be there soon
so soon
Running through the monsoon
beyond the world till the end of time
where the rain will turn
fighting the storm into the blue
and when i loose myself i think of you
toghter we'll be rdidng somehwere new
and nothing can hold me back from you
through the monsoon
just me and you

<3

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[Monday
November 20th, 2006
12:39am
]
[ mood | cheerful ]

SO yeah at anna's house staying on a school nite =O shocking i know lol i shall be nackerd in the morning btw lol don't really give a shit at this moment though lol.
Yeah i hate feckin school =[ aww well only a year n a bit to go =]
yeah lol i am very happy at this point in time like =D life is going pritty good =D.
yeah anyway bye bye XxX
Love you all very much XxX

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[Tuesday
November 14th, 2006
7:42pm
]
DO YOU KNOW FUCKING WHAT THIS HAS BEEN ONE OF THE WORST DAYS OF MY FUCKING LIFE.
I HATE PARENTS
I HATE SCHOOL
AND DO YOU KNOW WHAT SOME TIMES I HATE MY FRIENDS
I am actually so fucking angry and i want to just dispaeer and get out of here.

Do youknow what spoils it so ucking much was last night was so fun i had all the people i love under one roof and i loved it so fucking much.and the n today has just been so fucking bad =[.
It reminded me of how bad the day afetr zaba was last year and it makes me really sad cause i wanted to forget all that shit but then nooo it jut comes right back in my fucking face i fucking fucking hate it.


This sumsmy day up...

I think we have an emergency
I think we have an emergency

If you thought I'd leave, then you were wrong
Cause I won't stop holding on

So are you listening?
So are you watching me?

If you thought I'd leave, then you were wrong
Cause I won't stop holding on.

This is an emergency
So are you listening?

And I can't pretend that I don't see this

It's really not your fault
When no one cares to talk about it,
To talk about it

Cause I've seen love die
Way too many times
When it deserved to be alive
I've seen you cry
Way too many times
When you deserve to be alive, alive

So you give up every chance you get
Just to feel new again

I think we have an emergency
I think we have an emergency

And you do your best to show me love,
but you don't know what love is.

So are you listening?
So are you watching me?

Well I can't pretend that I don't see this

It's really not your fault
When no one cares to talk about it,
To talk about it

Cause I've seen love die
Way too many times
When it deserved to be alive
I've seen you cry
Way too many times
When you deserve to be alive, alive

These scars, they will not fade away.

No one cares to talk about it, talk about it

Cause I've seen love die
Way too many times
When it deserved to be alive
I've seen you cry
Way too many times
When you deserve to be alive, alive
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[Wednesday
November 1st, 2006
6:27pm
]
Right so just know i am freezing sad and sick =[.

Today was actually really good just sleeping and wathcing tv.
But my house is fucking freezing.
I miss nicky like lots this is the longest i havent seen her for or even fucking talked to her for so i am like mega sad about that.
Then i am all sad cause i cant go too that thing with anna n ryan =[.
But then i am happy cause the conferince thing went really well yesterday and we won a stella award thing which was rather good =].
I can't be arsed doing anything =[.
Heather cheered me up though with her spag ball eating and that LOL.
I rather much love that girl.
And i just saw the new pink video it was actually the shizz like all of her videos but heh it made me smile rather much.
Thats all.
XxX
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[Friday
October 27th, 2006
11:49pm
]
[ mood | content ]

Hey


So yesterday went to see Rocky Horror and know i am actually obsessed with it it waas the most amazing thing ever.
I have decided what i want to do when i am older=]. BE IN ROCKY HORROR or be in some other musical thing it was so amazing just watching it and i actually want to be part of somethin glike that. But i have to loose the chubby belly(and the rest) but i am kinda looking forward to seeing what happens in my life=].
TRANNNYS ARE ACTUALLY THE HOTTEST EVER !!!!!!!!!!...

Yeah so i am obsessed with it but it kinda keeps my mind of everything else =].


So yeah again i was the fattest most Ugly && stupid looking again but i allways am.
(Im not saying this just so i can get attention so feck off if you think i am).

OHHHH MAN IT WAS SO AMAZING=]=]=]=]=]..
Thats all i have to say
XxX

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[Monday
October 23rd, 2006
12:14pm
]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Wherever you go
You know I’ll be there
If you go far,
You know I’ll be there
I’ll go anywhere,
So I’ll see you there
You place the name
You know I’ll be there
You name the time
You know I’ll be there
I’ll go anywhere
So I’ll see you there

I don’t care if you don’t mind
I’ll be there not far behind
I will dare
Keep in mind
I’ll be there for you

Where there’s truth
You know I’ll be there
Amongst the lies
You know I’ll be there
I’ll go anywhere
So I’ll see you there

I don’t care if you don’t mind
I’ll be there not far behind
I will dare
Keep in mind
I’ll be there for you

If you should fall
You know I’ll be there
To catch the call
You I’ll be there
I’ll go anywhere
So I’ll see you there

I don’t care if you don’t mind
I’ll be there not far behind
I will dare
Keep in mind
I don’t care
I’ll be there for you
I’ll be there for you

Right know this is the song i actually love <3.
MON THE FUCKING GREENDAY =]

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[Saturday
October 21st, 2006
9:42pm
]
[ mood | blah ]

I was thinking today about how much i actually miss the old times with my two best friends in the world and know one of those best friends has completely vanished and i miss her lots. I dont miss the new her i miss the old her i wish she just be her self like she usto be. I miss GDSC and all the fun we usto have and the laughs and the dreams even though we knew it wasnt gonna come true it was good being silly and dreaming.

I mean i shouldnt conplain cause i still have one of those Best friends and i have a good time with her still but i know that [WE] still miss her.

I know that she will never want too be my friend know that she has her kool friends.

But i think deep dpwn she misses us too at least i hope she does.

At least i know who my real friends are =].

XxX

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[Thursday
October 12th, 2006
8:53pm
]
I know, you love the song but not the singer
I know, you've got me wrapped around your finger
I know, you want the sin without the sinner
I know
I know
I know, the past will catch you up as you run faster
I know, the last in line is always called a bastard
I know, the past will catch you up as you run faster
I know
I know
I know, you cut me loose in contradiction
I know, I'm all wrapped up in sweet attrition
I know, it's asking for your benediction
I know
I know
I know, the past will catch you up as you run faster
I know, the last in line is always called a bastard
I know, the past will catch you up as you run faster
I know
I know

I know, the past will catch you up as you run faster
I know, the last in line is always called a bastard
I know, the past will catch you up as you run faster
I know
I know.

XxX I don't know what i think any more
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[Thursday
October 5th, 2006
7:23pm
]
[ mood | drained ]

When i try to do what is best it is allways wrong.

just when i thought evrything was great i go and ruin it.

I thought i was doing what was best but now i know it was wrong

Sorry XxX

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[Sunday
October 1st, 2006
12:31pm
]
[ mood | blah ]

Hey..
Well yesterday was rather splendid =] went into town to pizza hut for jaclyns Bday was a good laugh.
Then we just wonderd for a bit then got the train to Bathgate had a laugh about Mr. ShavYour Bush it still makes me laugh =].
Watched SI sand n all that jaz then went for a walk with heather had a good wee Chuckle and a chat.
Then Jan's mum took me home. Watched Lee Evans with Charles was very funny.
I don't know what i think anymore i really don't and it sucks i wanna move on but i really can't..

Aww well...

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[Friday
September 29th, 2006
1:58pm
]
[ mood | crappy ]

So right now about too go to dancing i have actually not got the mental energey or physical energy to go but i am gonna have to go..
Today was allright had a laugh in art and in rme with becky she is kinda funny ina weird way lol.
RIght know i just someone to hug and love and just tell them my life but it wont happen with my looks will it.
I just relised i am actually gonna get no were in my life apart from having a whole load of kids probably no husband cause i would have annoyed him so much he would have left i will have lots of kids n have no life apart from them and all joking apart i really do not want that but its gonna end up happening... yeah thats that rant over lol..

There you are perfect and real,the smile on your face says you feel what i feel..

Just stay and say that you love me...

Please dont tease me so or tell me what to do..

Just stay and say that you love me...

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[Friday
September 29th, 2006
1:36pm
]
[ mood | sad ]

Why did'nt i meet you..

why did'nt i have a chance to call you up and thank you for the cards and presents..

Why did'nt i get too meet you..

why did'nt i get too say Hi or Even Bye..

Now i wish i had made the effort to find you and tell you i did'nt hate you..

And why did you have too fade away like that....

Even though i never knew you i some how still miss you.and love you..<3..

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[Tuesday
September 26th, 2006
6:39pm
]
[ mood | sad ]

Hey

First of all Ryan i have no idea why you are not talking to me but you know what two can play at that game.You knew this wasn't a good day for me and you just made it worse. Thats all i have to say about you.

Anyway Yesterday was really good school went mega fast then went to the center it was lots of fun with Mooney dancing and singing the fratellis good laugh like, Saw Kasey=], saw Nicky =]].
Then bfore i knew it was home time lol me and nicky got the bus home had a chat and stuff listened to this really amazing song i can not get it out me head lol. Then we came back to me house then her dad picked her up. Went to bed had like a hour sleep up worrying about well a whole load of crap really.
Today went too school it seemed to go really slowly and i hated it...
Walked home with anna had a good laugh with her taking the piss out of everything lol.
Know i am just at home nackerd all ready from running after kids and dogs lol.

I'm Just watching Lee Evans with the hope of it trying to make me happy but its not working lol.
SO yeah for this week i take on the role of being Mother OHH Fun.

♥|Even though|♥

Even Though i did'nt now you some how i still loved you

Even though we never spoke it felt like i knew you

And Even though you probably didnt even know i exsissted i still Loved you

And i still love you Allways and forever even though you are gone

maybe one day i will see you when my time comes...

♥ ♥ ♥

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[Wednesday
September 20th, 2006
7:38pm
]
I missed those times so much today...

It sucked so much...

I missed you all day it was just weird i hadn't felt that way in ages=[..

I hope i feel better tomorrow.

Maybe its just cause i miss you and wish i could see you more...


awww well..

Love too all Beeny ♥
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[Saturday
September 16th, 2006
6:35pm
]
[ mood | blah ]

Yesterday fun.
Went to nicolas party it was a good laugh me and anna dancing and stuff=].
Then satyed at hers talked and danced to the black crowes.
Today ok.
Went to the sound station thing it was good fun then after that went to callums house then came home. I sat here for a while then took the dog for a jog thing know my legs really hurt cause i went for a really long jog. No one i know is going to nicoles party so i dont know if i am go.
I am really tired bored and just annoyedat stupid things.

Last night everyone looked so skinnyand beautiful then i was just the fat ugly one trying to look nice and i just felt like the fattest person there i am sick and tired of feeling like this. I just can't feel nice and i hate it. When people say i looked really nice they were just saying that too make me feel better i know it. What they really meant was god i would hate too look like you. I want to do something abut it but i just can't and it annoys me so much i try my hardest and then ohh someone offers me chocolate or crisps then bang goes that idea of being skinny.
Sorry about that rant i am just ina pissy mood.
Love too all beeny XxX

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[Saturday
September 9th, 2006
9:16pm
]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Hey

Well ysterday was ok.
Went to school.
Went to Dancing had a laugh with emma and jessica cause we were trying to do this thing and i just kept falling on my fat arse LOL.
Came back.
Went to youthie had a laugh on the floor laughing at a kintting club letter and at hannah in the toilet LOL.
saw tony and jacyln and that so i went over for a while tony picked me up then walked home. Came home mum phoned said she was at daines so just went n the computer eat and watched tv till about 1. My mum jess and seb came home my mum was totally wrecked it was really funny.
today: got up got dressed eat then had a big crying session beacuse i felt so ugly and fat i just wanted to stay in bed all day. It has been ages since i have felt like that and it was horrible i can usually deal with how big i am and how ugly i look but today i could not take it but i am kool know i think it was me just being stupid cause i usto be even fatter than i am soo heh.(feeling sorry for my self bit over). Went to a dancing competion, Saw way too many girls in way too much make up acting way too grown up. Looked after Ellis and Alex it was well funny gave Ellis one of my old barbies and we sat and done her hair lol. Laura found out i was only 14(even though i have told her before lol) She was all shocked and stuff it was really funny. Saw my old dance teacher nearly swung for her stupid cow she looked me up and down and turned around stupid stuck up cow. Yeah but apart from that it was a lovely day =]. Fely sorry for jessica cause she never got anything but she was well amazing but heh.
All in All a fan dabby dosey day =].
Lots of love beeny XxX

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[Thursday
September 7th, 2006
8:09pm
]
[ mood | frustrated ]

All i Ask is too go see Betty Curse On the 21 of October But NOOO=[[[[..


That girl is amazing and the only time she will tour ever and i cant see her =[.
Ok so maybe i am over reacting but i want to go see her =[.
I actually sound like such a spiled brat lol.

Aww well i am upset know like.

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